Yep. After almost four years.

Why? I don't know. It's not like there's really any good reason for doing stuff like this, you know. Wala lang.

I would try to kid myself and say that it's just a journal, but it's not. Not after all the personal stuff I wrote that make me cringe now, stuff that makes me see how much I've changed, if not grown. Not after all the friends I've made online who've become very dear.

I had a great time, really. I tried my best to be as nice as possible to everyone I met and to accomodate them as much as I could. If somehow, I didn't reply to a message for me, I must have had a very good reason to do so. I apologize.

Thanks to everyone who ever visited, to everyone who ever left a comment, to everyone who ever sent an email, to everyone who ever added me to their IM list. And honey, thanks for laughing at my (corny) jokes.

Y'all have nice, happy little lives.

So yun. Naalala ko lang yung sinabi ko sa mga roommate ko nung October, paalis na ako sa bahay namin sa LB, dala ko na yung lahat ng gamit ko, at hindi na ako babalik dahil nakatapos na ako ng pag-aaral. Una na muna ako, kids. Mas madali kasi yung wala nang babay-babay.

Una na muna ako, kids.

This is me whining at 6 in the morning. Feel free to skip over the post.

Earlier (or yesterday), I decided to splurge a little for myself, the first time I've done so in some time. The last time I could remember just flat out spending all the money I had was during my trip to Baguio last December, and even then I spent most of my money for chocoflakes (and strawberries for my mom). Btw, if you're like her and you still couldn't believe I went, you could ask Karl or Lynn, I gave both of them jars of chocoflakes. And Richelle saw my bus ticket in my bag too.

Anyway, I decided to do some upgrades to my four-year old PC by buying a new hard drive and more memory. I had bought the PC the summer right after my freshman year in college with the money I had saved from scholarship allowance, so it's basically my companion for much of my college life. It has seen everything from mushy love letters to my ex-girlfriend to my undergraduate thesis.

But it was also old and slow, and I had always wanted to buy a new one, or at least upgrade it. However, I never really had the money, or rather, I didn't want to spend it, not for myself. I had the money about a month ago, enough probably to buy a new one, but you all know what happened to that.

I still wanted to do the upgrade, especially after seeing the spiffy-looking new Mandrake desktop. I wanted the hundreds of new applications, the stylish new theme, and the delectable anti-aliased fonts. I wanted the new versions of the programming tools on the CD, the souped-up release of the paint program Icay always played with when she's at my PC, the more stable versions of the games Mico and Osep played with when I'm not around. I wanted the icons that were just pure eye candy. Also, I've been feeling a lot of pity for my old, overworked computer. It's been through so much.

So I finally got around to upgrading it. I don't have a lot of money, and I ended up, well, having very little money after buying the hardware. I went to the office, where I had downloaded the Mandrake ISO images (yep, you could download them off the Internet), and burned myself the three installation CDs.

I skipped home happily, looking forward to the hours I'll be spending tweaking around my rejuvenated PC. Sure, it won't be a supercomputer, but it was going to be much better. And I was going to be so happy.

I put in the hard drive and the memory chips, popped in the discs, and the installation process went along smoothly. Then, when I tried booting up, it failed to load the graphical user interface.

Fortunately for me, I hadn't installed over the old hard drive, and I used that to boot up and searched the Internet for solutions. I already had some doubts as to what seemed to be causing the problems, and a look at the Mandrake BugZilla told me that it had something to do with my old video card. It was a showstopper bug, but there aren't too many cases because I had this really old video card. Because of that, there aren't any workarounds yet for the problem.

So that leaves me with a need to buy a new video card. I checked the pricelist the girl at the computer shop handed me earlier, and realized, I couldn't afford it. How could I? I'm broke.

And it's just so frustrating, because you know, I never really wish for more money, or more stuff. I never wanted a really powerful PC. All I wanted was just this little upgrade, and I was gonna be fine and happy and I couldn't even have it.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm a geek. I would tell all of you to go away, screw you and your happy little lives now, but we all know I wouldn't mean that.

Pero putangina, naiinis ako.

I'm supposed to be at the beach today, chilling with Karl and Mimi and Alexis, but I had to stay home and work on stuff. It's not work work, but other work work. Haay.

But it's not so bad really. I mean, I still feel exhausted from our company outing in Cavite a couple of days back. It was fun, the company outing, with basketball, billiards, videoke, inuman in Tagaytay, fresh seafood, and paintball wargames to keep us busy for two days. Oh, and I got some exciting news (for me at least), but I couldn't share it here (because it's dangerous), but I was excited enough to send text messages to everyone about it.


And so I'm just home for the long weekend. Earlier this afternoon, I was watching MYX and they played Debbie Gibson's "Lost in Your Eyes". Then, I was surprised to find out that it was a request show. I mean, I couldn't believe that someone actually requested for that song... AND THEY PLAYED IT.

I find things like this funny. I'm weird.


Seeing Bridget Jones on TV right now, I'd like to reiterate that the chubby Renee Zellweger is hotter in this movie than in any of her other movies. We all like her here just as she is. So really, when you're laboring over whether you should get that extra slice of chocolate cake, do the world a favor and just do it

From an IM conversation with Ellen.

Ellen: "Jae."

Me: "Yo?"

Ellen: "Hinahanap ko sa Peyups yung article nung ex mo, di ko makita. Haha, chismosa."

(Siyempre binigay ko yung URL.)



From an IM conversation with Karl.

Me: "Yoko na mag-pancitcanton."

Karl: "Kets?"

Me: "Wala lang. Wala nang point. Tinatamad na ako."

Karl: "Losing hope?"

Me: "Hahaha. Hindi naman. As if."



IM conversation pa rin, with Lisa.

Lisa: "Mukhang may bago ka na namang stalker."

Me: "Yup."

Lisa: "Dapat magtayo ka na ng banda. Marami ka nang groupies agad."

Me: "Bakit pa, eh may web site na ako?"



IM conversation with a neurotic psychobitch, after she took the superhero quiz I linked to in my last post.

Neurotic Psychobitch: "Guess who I got?"

Me: "The Incredible Hulk."

Neurotic Psychobitch: "Paano mo nahulaan?"

Me: "Hehehe, hindi ba obvious?"

(Tapos nagalit siya sa akin kasi nahulaan ko kaagad.)



Another IM conversation with Karl (yes, I never go out).

Karl: "Ano plano mo sa Holy Week? Sama ka sa 'min."

Me: "Saan ba kayo?"

Karl: "Iba, Zambales. Mukhang ako na naman lang ang lalake dun eh."

Me: "Anong meron dun?"

Karl: "Beach. Inuman."

Me: "Uy ok. Safe naman yung ganun, basta wag lang tayong kumanta ng 'Got to Believe' sa videoke after 2 beers."

Which Marvel Superhero are you?


He's always been my favorite X-Man since I was a kid. I had no idea how I got him though...





What Pulp Fiction Character Are You?

You don't tolerate shit. The .45 you carry in you pocket is scary, but your words are the real threat, especially when you decide to get Biblical. Try to take it easy, but maintain that edge of yours, which tends to keep people wary in your presence.

Ok, now all I need is a wallet. The one that says bad motherfucker on it.